i want out. i can’t say anything. it’s all been said. it’s all been heard. there’s nothing new, there are no new questions, no new answers. can’t sleep. mind racing. disappointed. angry. disgusted. trying to find a book that can distract me long enough to fall asleep. same as always. can’t figure out my problems, [...]
I’ve had a sinus infection or flu-type-thing since last week. Haven’t felt right since Saint Patrick’s day, when Chad and I went out and I got a little too drunk. I guess that weakened my immune system enough to let this whatever-it-is in. Had another trying round with the therapist today. Stuff that’s apparently bothered [...]
I keep intending to post something interesting and non-psychological on here. This isn’t it. Maybe next time. Therapy’s been at a point where, in the short term, it’s more painful to go than not. Picture physical therapy, but this isn’t a bone or a muscle that’s performing wrong, but a wrinkled mass of misguided grey [...]
Weather changing; not enough to warrant turning on the air conditioning, but enough that I get uncomfortably warm with doors, windows closed. Stuck in traffic Thursday on the way home; two hour drive. Regretted not stopping at bathroom on way out of work. (Messaged Donna a stuck-in-traffic haiku; she replied. Heart flutters; trip enjoyable. Pathetic.) [...]
Slept through Saturday. Didn’t spend more than an hour awake at a time. Trivia tomorrow should be good. Looking forward to the Watchmen movie this weekend. Thought I lost my pocketknife Friday, but turns out I just left it on my desk at work. (Relieved.) I think I’m going to go to bed early tonight, [...]