I feel sort of okay, now — which is probably why I’m so hesitant to post. I was half-way through typing the headline when I noticed that my mouse pad was covered with cat hair, and went to get a lint-roller to clean it up. So dedicated am I to not posting, it seems. I [...]
Been up all night after sleeping too much Friday. Going around in circles. As usual, I suppose. Don’t want to bother anyone. Don’t want to be alone. Don’t want to go anywhere. Don’t want to invite people here just to bore them. On the closing of doors… the number of potential subjects that can be [...]
I went to bed at a decent time… then finished a story in the latest ANALOG featuring blood-sucking mites, and spent the better part of an hour itching. Something about “closing doors” occurred to me last night, but I don’t have time to expand upon it right now. Only mentioning it so I don’t forget.
Pompous-sounding things. Overblown. Actual importance unknown; feels large. Maybe isn’t. Everything that felt brand new feels old again. SSDD. Doing same things, expecting different result. I begin to develop a directon and get hung up on insecurity, uncertainty. Require approval, confirmation, acceptance. When obtained, reject it. Seems to follow familiar loop. Want to do things [...]
The closing went off without a hitch Wednesday. Splitting up our insurance wasn’t hitch-free, but it was easily resolved. Dad hasn’t seen Zoe since the day she got there. Talked to Jenn yesterday. Didn’t talk about January, but talked. I’m not entirely here right now… been sleeping all day. I meant to get out and [...]
Selling the house is getting closer. More aware of it. This last week has been stressful. It doesn’t feel like it’s been so directly, but I can tell it is by my reactions to things. I can see the symptoms and the cause, but the connection is only inferred. Sue did most of her moving [...]