I had one of those everything-you-do-turns-out-wrong mornings, except it lasted until around 2pm. Then we had a meeting about a different framework we’re going to use for the next project. It’s new to me, and I’m inexperienced with some of the ideas involved. This is roughly the train of thought that rumbled through my head [...]
I’ve been having a lot of minor wish-fulfillment dreams lately. I don’t usually remember them, so I’ve been going through the “Oh, yeah, I had that conversation with so-and-so already–no, wait…” thing a bit.
The Ice-2 entry from the end of January has drawn, I believe, more spam comments than all of the other posts combined.
I don’t like having a day off with nothing to do. I would rather be at work than home alone and bored. Going see if Shada wants to go outside today. Probably drive around some.
If watching Savage Planet on the Sci-Fi channel isn’t a cry for help, I don’t know what is.
Things that feel real and solid and true come out like whiny crap when I put them into words. This morning dragged. Server problems–couldn’t do my job, but couldn’t go home. Around 3:00p the issues were resolved and it looked like we might get some work done. Checked my mail before settling in; had some [...]
(Wrote this at work, but hadn’t gotten around to actually posting it until now.) Before I got to Boa’s Sunday, and before I crashed, Donna sent me a text message asking if I was going to be there. This has been puzzling me for a few days, and it just hit me that it really [...]
(Wrote this at work, but hadn’t gotten around to actually posting it until now.) I’m such a knot of frustration and want, and I don’t know what to do about it. I believe I can change, that I can learn to respond to things naturally instead of freaking out and over-analyzing… right up until the [...]
Last Sunday when I left Boa’s I convinced myself to just quit. I decided I needed to avoid them all, rather than bounce between “okay” and “end-of-the-world” every time I’m around her. I haven’t contributed anything to this circle, and I’ve managed to condition myself to being a needy whiny-ass when I’m around them. No [...]
Let’s just pretend I’ve posted a big whiny rant here and move on. Whatever.