Something my new therapist and I talked about a bit today why I’m so certain that the last time I was completely happy was in 1999. Nothing about that year stood out as particularly joyful, and in fact, there were several downright awful things about that year that I wish hadn’t happened… but just thinking [...]
I’m not going to express this well, as it’s still only partially congealed. Yet another discontinuity. When thinking clearly and rationally, I believe I’m an adult. I can make decisions. I can make plans. I can have opinions. The moment anything emotional hits, I’m a child. A hedonistic drive that pushes away all responsibility and [...]
Saw my lawyer today to get things started toward divorce. Going to see him again in a week to look over paperwork and sign things. Then it’s S.’s turn to sign things, and then it’s sixty days. We still haven’t figured out what to do with the house, but we’ll burn that bridge when we [...]
The JsB and I helped D. move yesterday. I got over there about quarter of nine, got home around five or so. I don’t think I was much help. I’m pretty disappointed in myself. Almost embarrassed, really. It’s one thing to think you’re out of shape, but (like so many other “discoveries”) it’s eye-opening to [...]
I had been planning on dropping some tax paperwork by mom’s before heading back to Nashville, but instead I did something stupid. I owed S. some money, so thought I’d drop her off some cash and maybe say hello. I called her, she said it was cool. Harmless enough. I knew it was a bad [...]
Drove out to Cookeville Sunday around noon. Dropped off the car to have my tire fixed; it turned out the “tac-tac-tac” noise I’d been hearing was a large screw that had gotten wedged into the right rear one. Dad gave me a lift from there to his house, where we set up his new PC–his [...]
Saturday. Do the wake up/drift off dance all morning, until around 3:00pm or so. Wake up, get shower, get movin’. Get coordinating with folks. Have dinner with Jonathan and Kevin and Atox at the Calypso near 100 Oaks, then on to the Saucer for the maxxout around 7:30pm. We were the first ones there, so [...]
Not that I plan on turning this into a link blog, but I just thought Ze Frank‘s take on Valentine’s Day was interesting.
Boa said a few months ago that I want to be a victim. I disagreed with him at the time, but now I’m not so sure. I desire one set of things–but seem to be working toward another. The things I do don’t line up with the things I say (or think) that I want. [...]
Saw Reservoir Dogs with Atox this week. Interesting movie, but it’s going to forever taint my appreciation of “Stuck in the Middle With You.” Also saw Layer Cake this weekend at Carl and Abby’s. I need to watch it again with subtitles. Some accents just don’t make it all the way through to comprehension. Talked [...]