I feel like I have things to post, but when I go to post them, there’s nothing there. Bits of Dragon*Con were enjoyable, but I spent most of it in my head, and you can imagine what that’s like. It was good to see some Cookeville- and Atlanta-friends again.
I think I’m going to Dragon*Con this year. It gives me something to look forward to, which changes just about everything while I’m doing so. Self-loathing might be held at bay for a bit, given adequate distraction. Trying not to pin all hopes for future sanity on the convention like I may or may not [...]
When I’d rather clean the bathroom than post, it usually means I need to post something. It doesn’t always mean I have the time or words I need to do so. I take that back; I’ve had plenty of time. Just not right now. Early meeting tomorrow. Gotta go to bed.
For the last week, I’ve thought there was a party tonight. It’s two weeks from now. Whoops. I blew my four-day caffeine-free spree today; lots of tea, lots of Coke. Canada Dry and Sailor Jerry, now. I’m blogging on the PC because the Mac is playing The Fourth Kind, borrowed from cute-and-way-too-young waitress at Sal’s. [...]
While eating dinner at Sal’s, with a bare minimum of Googling (forgot how to assign to arrays during initialization, and minor inspiration for non-blocking getchar() — oh, yeah, use curses!) I wrote my first C program in years. Life! I think I’ve coded Life in every programming language I’ve ever learned. Feels good, but I [...]
I took advantage of Kevin’s birthday (and his air mattress) last weekend and finally got to see New Orleans. I’m afraid I’ve spent too long at work since then, and a lot of my good adjectives have been burnt out of my head by daily soul-deadening job-stuff, but I’ll say what I can. It was [...]
Writing this at Sal’s. Been meaning to haul my laptop in here since they got wireless. I’m kind of self-conscious about it, though. I’m self-conscious about a lot of things. Had another half-day at work today. Couldn’t bring myself to start; slept until eleven or so. (I thought that perhaps writing in a different environment [...]
What does one do? I mean… I’m theoretically a perl developer, but I spend maybe an hour a day doing that. *Maybe* two. I play WoW a lot; but I haven’t played it for more than an hour in the last three days. I didn’t go to work yesterday. I just went back to bed. [...]
Drinking and watching House and funny cat videos. Spent much of the evening knocking heads off zombies. Finished my latest car book, Hunter’s Run. It was interesting. Not what I expected. Work has been frustrating. I’m fine in the morning, I’m okay through breakfast — but getting to work just shuts everything off. When I [...]
When I close my eyes, the motion make me seasick. Sort of a blurry, drifting, wobbling feeling. Memories swish around and fold into other things. Loaded down with cliches. Needing to “find myself.” Need reasons. Destinations. Goals. Motives. Bored and tired. Can only motivate for a few hours at a time, and then it’s all [...]