While eating dinner at Sal’s, with a bare minimum of Googling (forgot how to assign to arrays during initialization, and minor inspiration for non-blocking getchar() — oh, yeah, use curses!) I wrote my first C program in years. Life! I think I’ve coded Life in every programming language I’ve ever learned. Feels good, but I [...]
Writing this at Sal’s. Been meaning to haul my laptop in here since they got wireless. I’m kind of self-conscious about it, though. I’m self-conscious about a lot of things. Had another half-day at work today. Couldn’t bring myself to start; slept until eleven or so. (I thought that perhaps writing in a different environment [...]
I don’t entirely understand. I had to steal them from her before I went to, um, dinnerbreakfast. She’d hunkered down in three or four pair by the bedroom door and gone into ambush mode. You know how that is; pupils dilated, ears forward, tail whipping. Death on four legs for anything smaller than her. Then, [...]
Self-involved half-drunk bullshit; you know the drill. Scroll wheel or the little [x] button or whatever. Have to get this out of me. Best crash I’ve had this year. Well, I shouldn’t say best. [interlude: distracted by television] Maybe I should keep doing that. Eventually I’ll be tired enough to fall asleep. Except ran out [...]
Cycling through different aspects of last weekend’s events. First, of course, was the initial “there’s something horribly wrong with me” conclusion. This isn’t anything new to me, but the severity of it was pretty frightening. One interpretation of what happened was that, indeed, all my fears were justified, and that I am a creepy bastard. [...]
saturday – bartender celebrating birthday. met her parents. monday – bartender actual birthday. talked a lot. didn’t drink much. around 2am, she told me to ask her out. did. accepted. swapped numbers. agreed on wednesday. surprised. astonished. spent remainder of night in bliss-haze. tuesday – called, texted – no response. wednesday – called, texted, hung [...]
These are disjointed, but are as I wrote them. One “pink pussy.” More tart than I expected. One amaretto and sprite. It’s like heartburn waiting for its chance to strike. Alcohol, in addition to lowering inhibitions, shuts off some defense mechanisms. Good, I don’t seize up–lubricates the synapses–but leaves me vulnerable to global “everything/always” thinking. [...]
I feel bad that it’s been almost two weeks since I’ve posted anything, but it’s after midnight and I really should get to bed, so… I’ll try to keep this quick. Had ups, had downs. The usual kind of thing. Good couple of weeks. Been learning about drinking with Chad while we finish off season [...]
I made it to Thursday afternoon. I don’t know what set it off. Several things happened around the same time. I finished the project I’d been working on all week; little left but to round out the corners and fluff it up a bit. I don’t think I was off my medication long enough to [...]
Thought I had a slight allergy problem on New Year’s Eve; stuffy nose, achy sinuses. Eh, I figured it would pass. NYE party at Bill and Pam’s was good. No barfing, this year! Crashed on their couch for a few hours. Visited parents on the first. Got to see my brother Nick’s kids, visiting from [...]